In Which I Have Night Nursing And It Is Awesome, Even If It Did Not Go Exactly As I Had Planned

Hooray for night nursing!

My first night of blissful sleep didn't go quite how I anticipated it would, though.  I had a bit of an altercation going on between my the rational part of my brain and the irrational part-- you know, the one that takes over riiiiiiiiiiight before you go to sleep.  Here's how the basic dialogue played out:

Rational Brain: Whoo hoo!  Time to get some shut eye.  Good night!
Irrational Brain: Okay!
      Five minutes go by and I'm almost asleep.
Irrational Brain: Hmm.  Something's missing.  Connor seems to be really, really quiet.  A little too quiet.  I can't hear his monitor at all.  Oh no-- I must have forgotten to turn it on!  And because I forgot to turn it on, maybe he had a seizure and I didn't hear him and now he's dead or something OMG CONNOR IS PROBABLY DEAD RED ALERT AAAHHHHHH!!!!!
      Cue huge adrenaline rush. 
Rational Brain: AHHHH-- wait, what?  No, we have a night nurse now, remember?  She's got the apnea monitor in the other room, so that's why you can't hear it.  Quit freaking out and go to bed.
Irrational Brain: Oh yeah.  Whoops.
      Repeat five hundred times or until three in the morning-- whichever comes first.

So that was pretty much how my night went, though my brain did throw in the occasional "Holy Crap There's Someone In The House And It's Probably A Burgler Who Will Try And Kill Us All" for variety.  Obviously six years of sleeping with one ear listening out for Connor's apnea alarm aren't going to be instantly erased.  What sleep I did get was pretty darn refreshing though, so I'm hoping to get more of it tonight! 

With that thought in mind, I went out today and bought myself a white noise machine.  The only place I could find one without having to wait for it to be shipped was in the infant section in Target, and there I discovered a number of choices, including a teddy bear and a turtle that lit up the ceiling with constellations.  I settled on a contraption called "Sounds For Silence" that claims it has "more than a 90% success rate at calming crying babies."  While this sounds very impressive and it will be an added bonus if we ever decide to collect crying babies for some reason, the real reason it won me over was because it had the excellent feature of being a bland white disk instead of being teddy bear or turtle shaped. 

I'll let you know how it works out.

~Jess